The weather was beautiful and Ellie and I played on the swings. It was a great day.
Too bad it didn't stay that way.
I got a phone call saying I did not get the job I was most excited about. This instantly put me into an OH SHIT mode.
What's that?
You know, it's the mode where I begin to ask myself why the hell did we make this decision? What would possess me and my husband to quit the jobs we like? The stable, well paying jobs?! And to move to a different state, where we find ourselves with a house to sell and not sure if we can afford to buy another here. And me, unemployed. And Daddy in a job where he wonders why they hell they hired him and if he can even accomplish the things they want him to do.
Ugh. I hate feeling like this.
I know the answer is that we did this for the little one. We did it so that we could be closer to the majority of our family. I know that it will all come together and that I'm bound to end up employed again at some point. And surely we won't be homeless with a mortgage payment forever. And Daddy? He's one smart cookie and he'll realize that he can accomplish everything they hired him for and then some.
But today does not look that way at all.
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Aw, Jen, I'm sorry. I know you were excited about that job possibility. But you were also sort of talking yourself into being excited. Maybe it just wasn't The One. The One is still out there, and it'll fulfill you more than this one would have. But you'd never find it if you took something you had to talk yourself into.
Hope you're feeling better about it now that it's been a few days. Any other prospects?
Jen R.
I do have other prospects. One I should hear about by tomorrow. Another interview hasn't been scheduled yet. I'm sending my resume to more companies hopefully this week and if nothing comes of that I am going to start going after the government contractor type of work.
Our house is under contract so that's a step in the right direction. Hopefully we'll be under contract for a house in Boulder soon but that's not official yet. So that would be another step.
I think it will be nice to have a place of our own again so that we can start feeling more like this is home instead of just a vacation.
Luckily not all days feel the way that one did!
Hey - haven't talked to you in a while. What's the temp job?
Jen
Yeah, the three of us need to try to get together soon!
The temp job is with the company in Golden who made me the original offer way back when, but then didn't get their funding. The work is quite interesting. I'm working on a Ultrasound system that measures the thickness of the cornea. And that's pretty cool! However, I quickly learned that a 50+ minute commute is not what I want to do permanently.
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